Sunday, October 7, 2012

Monday Mantra: There is so much beauty in play

Rita Moreno, West Side Story rehearsal, 1961. Photographer: Phil Stern via Old Hollywood

As you have probably noticed, I've been doing a lot of soul-searching in relation to blogging recently. It's such a curious medium and I love it so much! So much so, in fact, that I have a very difficult time abandoning it. I've tried a few times but I just can't let it go. I keep needing the space, the words, the audience.

Then I look at this thing... so old now... and so changeable... fickle, really. I love it for so many reasons, it's seen me grow up and it's evolved with me so many times. But it has never been SUCCESSFUL. It's never been a blog TO READ. And that causes me grief because I'm the type of person who thrives on positive acknowledgement and recognition. I need to be noticed, I guess. I'm also a complete sucker for measurable signs of success even though I know better.

I admit this, not with ease or out of false modesty. I admit it because it makes my life difficult, it always has and I want it to be otherwise.

So this Monday's Mantra is a reminder, really, that there is so much joy and pleasure in doing something without any sense of obligation. That there is so much beauty in play.

Have a wonderful week!

8 comments:

  1. Well I read it! I'm always happy to see one of your posts pop up in my feed; they're so interesting. I don't actually have a lot to say about fashion, though, even though I *like* it. I mostly like it on other people.

    I also like recognition. But at the same time I'm not sure I want to be a successful blogger. If you're successful you have to deliver--you can't just stop talking for a week. I don't want to have to blog, I just like doing it (and seeing my numbers go up, and getting comments...and, yeah).

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    1. Thank you so much for your note! I feel the same way... I don't want to feel like this is a chore. My problem is that, intellectually I recognize that I don't want/need a SUCCESSFUL blog but the Type A person that I am (for example, I always made good grades in school, in EVERY subject, even the ones I didn't like)... I still feel like I am trying to work towards having a successful blog. I don't know if this makes sense. :/

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    2. It makes total sense! I want to be a Popular Blogger even though I don't want to have to produce content all the time, or do advertising, or any of that junk. I find myself thinking like I want to have a successful blog, even though I know, objectively, that it's not a goal I want to put my time into and it's not a life I want to have. I have a lot of rewarding stuff I already do, and blogging has to stay as a fun hobby. I wouldn't even like it if it wasn't just a fun hobby. And yet...

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    3. I have just decided that I am not going to measure my success by whatever the most common success measure happens to be. I know what I want my blog to be for me, what I want it to mean to other people. If it measures up to THAT, it's successful.

      This conversation tells me that it is. Ta daaaa!

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    4. Yay! Now I just have to keep that in mind too. :)

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  2. Although I could relate more to the "How to marry a Bulgarian" stories, "The Migrant Bookclub" is part of my daily Internet ritual. Not optional :)
    In fact, there are 7 blogs that I check religiously - every day and I always start with this one.

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    1. You are the sweetest. I miss those more personal stories but it's not our life anymore... you know. We live largely American lives right now... I didn't want to exaggerate our cultural difference for the sake of a good story.

      Tell me which posts you like the best... you know that blogging sometimes feels like shooting in the dark!

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    2. Which posts do I like the best ... I have a gut feeling that I like the ones you like the best - it does show in the writing somehow. All of them I find interesting for different reasons: the fashion ones are educational for me, because I know nothing about fashion (to illustrate: I had to google Miroslava Duma, I had NO idea who she was), the literaly I love because they give me hints what books to get (I preordered Prep as I told you and also I have been meaning to wirte a post about Paris I love you ... but I still haven't gotten around to it). I always find it interesting to read about what you find interesting, but still, I think I love the ones which are stories the most - for example the post about that lady with the printing press - that sounded so cool and so interesting.

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