|Rita Moreno, West Side Story rehearsal, 1961. Photographer: Phil Stern via Old Hollywood|
As you have probably noticed, I've been doing a lot of soul-searching in relation to blogging recently. It's such a curious medium and I love it so much! So much so, in fact, that I have a very difficult time abandoning it. I've tried a few times but I just can't let it go. I keep needing the space, the words, the audience.
Then I look at this thing... so old now... and so changeable... fickle, really. I love it for so many reasons, it's seen me grow up and it's evolved with me so many times. But it has never been SUCCESSFUL. It's never been a blog TO READ. And that causes me grief because I'm the type of person who thrives on positive acknowledgement and recognition. I need to be noticed, I guess. I'm also a complete sucker for measurable signs of success even though I know better.
I admit this, not with ease or out of false modesty. I admit it because it makes my life difficult, it always has and I want it to be otherwise.
So this Monday's Mantra is a reminder, really, that there is so much joy and pleasure in doing something without any sense of obligation. That there is so much beauty in play.
Have a wonderful week!