|Photograph of Audrey Tautou from HERE.|
The reason I am bringing it up today is the most recent interview – with French actress Audrey Tautou – which surprised me with its honesty. Tautou talks about her personal interests, outside of work – I travel, I write, I take photos, I read, I draw – which, at this point, she says she is keeping private because she lacks self-confidence:
Do you also lack self-confidence as an actress?
Yes. I look for that self-confidence in the director I work with. The director will give me that dose of confidence that the rest of the time I am lacking to make me feel totally secure.
Don’t you think you are being a bit too hard on yourself?
It doesn’t mean that I think I suck! I am able to make a negative or a positive judgment about the roles and scenes I am in. Some of the work I’ve done is good work and when I watch myself I can see that there is not a moment when I leave the character. Often, in quite a few of my films, I will watch my work and see that in this scene or that scene I wasn’t quite on track. But I don’t beat myself up saying I am good-for-nothing and wondering why I was chosen.
I love this interview for so many reasons! No. 1: I am increasingly interested in stories about people's hobbies and side-projects. I find it extremely empowering to know that in a world that puts so much emphasis on professional success people are still venturing out and finding fulfillment outside of their workplace (even if that workplace is as creative as the movie-set). No. 2: I love that an internationally recognized artist is honest and open about the fear and self-doubt involved in the creative process but also, No. 3: How one can still figure out to live with said lack of self-confidence and not let it stifle them completely. It doesn’t mean that I think I suck! is perfect.